ROT

CHROME PLATED ADONIS OF MY YOUTHFUL DREAMS - I love you - I MISS YOU / friend of a war past gone, i sit upon the throne of millions failed before me . - i sit upon my throne of my youth and I say, curse you god of time - curse the speed of light, I'll do as I PLEASE / I'LL GO AS FAST AS I WANT AND I'LL LIVE AS LONG AS THAT - is what I'd say to you - adonis of the past- now shriveled into dust., mortal as I am - do i realize the path is false, and that all will remain is ash? or will I burn as bright as the sun-/ friend of mine . as true as it always was, I refuse you and become what i always should - necrophyte - not feeding off blood of the living but what is dead - not sucking on the tit of the nation or any -mancer but becoming a machine of my own device - not to spit out shit but to bring back what is mine / to remove every component but what is yours / to self obliterate until all remains is what's of steel and what's of energy - - stasis never was an option and neither was death, in what sounds like substracting i am moreso sublating - i am ending my lying ways and finally showing my heart, my lung, my guts, to you -

in my days of rot i could almost grasp what I was - attaching myself to your liver i became of the same mechanism / what did I do but sucking on the nipple of a nation/only following you because you're my dad - and one day as we became one is the day we were the furthest apart ALIENATING alienating is the worst form of union, never did I think I would touch but the distance it created was unbearable and I had to destroy you

i had to destroy the sun - and become / in my quest of unbecoming it became clear i had to become - not the sun but a million stars that could finally bloom as cancerous sprawl let me insert myself in between where was nothing / your body and mine will never touch - as i declared/| as to this arrangement will let us live forever/without friction there is no death, never will your face grind against the asphalt without substance between it but only within it / by becoming what is within but without - inside-out such-as-i-am be-coming , will you never die /